Alright, so I’ve got this thing that’s been bugging me for a while now, and I figured I’d share my experience and see if anyone else can relate. It’s about my ex, and how, well, I can only seem to get it up for her.
It all started innocently enough. We were together for about three years, and things were great, at least sexually. We broke up for reasons I won’t get into, but let’s just say it wasn’t pretty. I moved on, or at least I thought I did. I started dating again, meeting new people, the whole nine yards.
But here’s the kicker: no matter who I’m with, I just can’t seem to perform. It’s not that I’m not attracted to them, it’s just that my body doesn’t respond the way it used to. It’s like my mind is still stuck on my ex, even though I consciously know it’s over.
I’ve tried everything to get over her. I deleted her number, unfollowed her on social media, avoided places we used to go together. But it’s like she’s still there, haunting my thoughts, especially when I’m in bed with someone else. One time when I met my new partner, I even thought I could be cured, but in the end I still couldn’t get it up, which made me feel bad about myself.
It’s gotten to the point where I’m starting to doubt myself. Am I ever going to be able to have a normal sex life again? Is there something wrong with me? I’ve talked to my friends about it, and they all tell me to just give it time. But it’s been months, and nothing’s changed.
Then, one day, I ran into my ex at the grocery store. We made small talk, caught up a bit, and then went our separate ways. But that night, I couldn’t stop thinking about her. And, well, you can guess what happened. I was able to get hard, just like old times.
So, I started thinking, maybe the problem isn’t me, it’s her. Maybe I’m just not over her yet. And maybe, just maybe, the only way to fix this is to confront my feelings head-on. I know it might not be a smart decision, but I reached out to her again and we met up. We ended up hooking up, and it was like no time had passed. I felt like myself again, at least in that moment.
This is the process and steps I took
- Broke up with my ex after a three-year relationship.
- Tried to move on by dating new people.
- Experienced difficulty performing sexually with new partners.
- Attempted to get over my ex by deleting her contact information and avoiding places we frequented.
- Ran into my ex and subsequently experienced a renewed ability to get hard.
- Contacted my ex and hooked up again, temporarily alleviating the issue.
Now, I’m not saying this is a healthy or sustainable solution. I know I can’t keep going back to my ex every time I want to get it up. But for now, it’s the only thing that’s worked. I’m sharing my story not to seek advice, but to see if anyone else has gone through something similar. It’s a lonely and frustrating experience, and I’m just trying to make sense of it all.
So, that’s my story. It’s messy, it’s complicated, and it’s far from over. But I felt like I needed to get it off my chest. Maybe by sharing, I can find some solace in knowing I’m not the only one who’s ever felt this way.
